“Today, I’m the one.” she said… | Conduit for Self-Healing

“I didn’t want this illness, cancer, to define my life. I wanted, intended, to continue with some sort of normalcy.” “But cancer laughs at me, at that thought, as if it was some crazy-ass idea. I needed normalcy so that I could move through this, to tolerate it, with more ease. This isn’t me. I’m an entrepreneur! I’m used to being in service to others. I’m a creative! But like it or not, cancer does define my life, more than I like or want.” Those are the words I recorded in my journal on May 3rd, 2017, 78 days after my first cancer diagnosis.   In February of this year I was diagnosed with Triple Negative Breast Cancer and five weeks later diagnosed with a secondary pelvic cancer – two Stage 3 curable, but aggressive cancers. Scary. Along the way there have been so many unknowns. I’ve often felt like I was in some sort of alternate reality where everything had stopped. But it hadn’t. I struggled with a total lack of direction. “What’s happening to me? Where am I going? And who will I be when I get there? What happens to my business? And, how am I going to survive not just one but two cancer diagnosis?” Every year I have a word theme for that year. This year my theme was “Bliss”. Kind of ironic when you think about it. Not quite what I had in mind.   It has been a year of transformation like no other, one of my whole body, mind and spirit.   I have put to use every tool I have...